Happy birthday to me.

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So, today is my birthday.

I'm not saying how old I am but I'll give you some hints. :)

This birthday is very somber and reflective.

It's also very bittersweet.

I'm at the age where I look back on the life I've had.

I also look at where I am right now, and where I'm headed.

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As I look back, I think of all the major life events that took place in the last decade...

9/11

my monkeys were born.

both my grandparents died.

I split up from my husband, Bret.

I met Mister Christmas.

I started and grew a successful business.

I moved several times.

I lost two of my best friends.

I gained several AMAZING friends.

I met Natalie.

I discovered blogging.

Bret died.

And now, here I am...

taking life day-by-day.

Life is much harder than it was before, yet it's also a lot easier.

I don't worry about the small things anymore.

But, I also spend more time worrying about the bigger things.

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At this very moment, the future is UNCLEAR.

I never would have pictured myself where I am right now.

That's okay.  We never end up where we think we will...

Do we?

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So...I am preparing for what's to come on this journey through life.

Although, nothing can ever REALLY prepare me for what's to come.

The future is the future, and it's always a mystery.

I am really hopeful about what's to come in the next ten years of my life.

I know their will be more milestones.  

There will be more disappointments.  

More triumphs, and more heartbreak.  

I face the mystery of the future knowing that I am stronger and I am surrounded by the people I love, and who truly love me.

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Happy birthday to me. :)